The hard part is getting it out of your head...

I hate the feeling of needing someone.
Well...I don't feel like I need someone, especially anyone in particular seeing as anyone I know is a letdown.

I just hate that working so hard and keeping myself so slut-lessy just means your turn into a bitter maid.
I know I'm really young, and I have two whole years left of college...but damn. Do I have to do this forever?

I have so many issues myself I really shouldn't be with anyone else...
Say like...hmm...6 months in I get restless? I mean is it me or is it that the relationship just isn't right?
I hate all this guess work. It's bullshit.
Not to mention the innate feeling that a guy is always going to leave me for something better.
I just think I'm not meant to find someone, that it's just always going to be a revolving door.

I'm just so mad at myself, the situation, and men in general.
I just wish for once that I can find who I'm supposed to be with
and be done with this dating crap.

I have so much going on in my life...why am I worried about this?
I'm so messed up when it comes to priorities...
School I'm doing well with but I have SO much left to do in these 5 semesters I have left.
I hope it goes by quick, the next two years, and I can get a good job and just support myself.

I'll finish school, get a job, get an apartment somewhere, and then a dog.
Then I'll work on this love bull again...or I'll be a dried up biddie.

Ugh. Nothing makes sense anymore. I'm so much more eloquent and motivated when I'm in like.
Fuck.