What I believe in

I never really know where to stand sometimes.
On the line for love or against it?

I want to believe that everyone meets their soulmate, and ends up getting their dream.
But the realist in me says the complete opposite.
Especially with how I am.

I'm always half empty it seems.
I'm never content.

In a relationship I want out,
Out I want in.

I would like to have a relationship, know where I stand in it, but tell no one else.
I like to be private when it comes to this.
I think I just hate the thought of someone leaving me, so I either leave them or think they're leaving me the whole time we're together.
That's my big ticket item...or issue.
I want to feel like something is concrete in my life, not easily taken away.
But I also don't want to feel smothered.
I like the feeling of wanting more, and knowing I'll be able to have it.
I'm just working on the latter half of that statement.
Right now I feel like I'm working with a time limit.
And a ghost of a person. There sometimes, disappears the next moment.
I'm not asking anything huge.
Maybe I am...to me it's just a confirmation of mutual feelings and respect.
I do believe in this though, I can't just give up after a small sign of trouble.
Beginnings are rough, and things happen when you least expect them.
I just have to have some hope that someone out there is looking out for me in this big universe, and
that I somehow make it out in one piece.

Here's hoping today brings something special,
if not, there's always tomorrow <3