Don't

I knew myself
I know what I do
I know the steps to this dance

Calling it a game
thats an understatement
its a tournament
who's the last one standing

how many times can you be stabbed through the heart
how many times can you foil your own attempts at success

can I just drown already?
can it just be over?
I'm not meant to handle these life lessons



like a slippery stone teetering on the edge of the shore
about to be enveloped in cool, life seeking water
fill every empty space in my soul
bubble up threw my throat, over my chin and onto the cold floor
my lips turn purple and blue, the royalest of hues
ill be necrophelic royalty.

a queen with the dead
ill rule with an iron fist full of thorns
cold and dead, heartless and ruthless
long black hair, wrap around your throat
choke out your light and you'll join me, too
you'll see in hues of blue, underwater is where the dead do lie

haunting eyes, toothy grin, baby you're coming too
i will rule beside you, you who rip my heart apart
with the daily grind, men may just be a peon in
my underworld, doing the dirty work amongst
the beauty of the sea

flippers and fins, fangs and knives
you have no idea where im from
what you've done
this dead queen, who i've come to be
is really just an Alice lost in a world
looking for a hand to hold.

I'm looking to tie my red ribbon to you
and find my way home.
I want these pink lips to part for you
with words and kisses so sweet
rosy cheeks to appear from deathly glow
breathe life into me, slow and fluid

create those cracks, let my skin breathe fresh meadow air
peel away the over dead skin, bring my eyes back to focus
like a butterfly, find my wings and pull away from this watery grave
love is an addiction in any form. lesser like, lust..
i'm in need of rehabilitation.
rabbit in hand, shoes on my feet.
kiss me, save me, send me reeling again..