What I've learned regarding relationships and myself

About Myself:
1. It's possible for me to make myself happy. Through art or people or even music.
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2. I like being independent and outgoing, but sometimes it takes me a bit to realize it and enact it.
3. I'm better at drawing then I thought. Painting is not a strong suit. Photography is a hobby.
4. I want to be a studio manager, or museum curator. I like being dependable, and having a good reputation. I like a meticulous job where I can have things my own way.
5. I have to be honest with myself, even more than I was. No delusions.
6. I can be wrong, and I need to apologize when I am.
7. I can be mean, and I won't always apologize for it.
8. I do not like clingy people. I ignore them.
9. I want to be better. Physically and mentally. Therefore I'm going to work even harder.
10. I want to be loved by who I want to be loved by. I'll ignore what I don't want. Life is hard that way.
11. I'm a harder, tougher, colder person than I originally thought I was.
12. I do believe I'm scarred now. I don't trust people anymore.
13. I have wounds that I didn't think were possible. They're still wide open.
14. I do not want anyone to try to heal my wounds. It's all up to me.
15. I love being by myself. Not because I'm used to it. But I can be myself and do what I want when I'm alone.
16. I want to know the truth even if it hurts. No matter what.
17. I'm normally unhappy. I don't mind it though.
18. I like being with someone. I do not need to be with someone. There is a difference.
19. I like working with fabrics now, as well as ink and traditional photography.
20. I'm not going to be anything I don't want to be. No matter what. I don't give a damn.

Relationships:
1: You need to be independent people. Two separate people together.
2. Don't rush things.
3. Don't push things. If it is meant to be, it will BE. Regardless of what you want.
4. Be able to do things on your own, as well as together. No waiting around.
5. See where the other person is coming from. Even if you don't like it.
6. Fight without swearing, even if you're THAT angry.
7. Share what you love with them. It's also a TWO WAY STREET.
8. Be honest, even if it HURTS.
9. Realize when you do something you don't feel was that bad, but hurt the other more than you could possibly imagine.
10. Friends are the best thing for a relationship. Someone to bitch to, someone to cry to, someone to take your mind off of the situation, someone to share the good with, and listen to their good things. But don't let them dictate how you feel or how you act towards the one you love, or other friends.
11. Love every fault, it makes them who they are.
12. You both make sacrifices for each other, REALIZE THEM.
13. Flirting in person is fine, but not when the other is around, and as long as it doesn't mean anything else. Texting others when you're together is OFF LIMITS, friends, flirts, or foes.
14. At least pay SOME attention to the things they tell you, even if you don't care too much. If they say it, it obviously means something to them.
15. Don't be with someone who makes you unhappy, but be sure to try EVERYTHING first.
16. Time heals all wounds. There is no predetermined time limit, so be patient. If they loved you then, they can again.
17. Meet new people, it just gives you more experience and helps you determine who's worth keeping in your life.
18. Don't push each other to do something you don't want to do. it isn't fair to anyone.
19. Don't just tell the person you care about what they want to hear. It only hurts both of you in the end.
20. Second chances aren't a sign of weakness, it just proves how much you care about someone.

I've learned a lot in these 3 months. I've lost and gained a lot as well. Everything happens for a reason & there's always tomorrow.