Do you ever feel so...I'm not even sure of the emotion to label this feeling.

So out of control that you want to cry, scream, and punch someone or break something all at the same time?

That's how I feel right now.
I hate them I'm so involved with being in love and finding it and thinking about it.
I would like to just turn it off. I'm tired of thinking about the past and comparing my present to it.

My resolution, one of many, is to consciously stop worry about it. About all the hims. I really need to stop, its hurting me.