This morning

Another realization.

Things weren't as good as I had first imagined them.
You weren't as good to me as you could have been.
Especially for a fiance.
Remember that time in South Carolina where I had to wait 3 hours at a grocery store by myself when I had just gotten off the plane? I knew no one. I couldn't buy anything b/c it was a military base. All i had was my purse and cell phone. Yeah you were sorry but when you came to pick me up...you sat in the front with your friend and made me sit in the back with people I didn't know, nor did you introduce me to them. You're an asshole. Or what about that time in Wet Seal while I was down there and the girls were flirting with you while I tried clothes on...yeah you ate that up. I'm glad you're gone. It was a blessing in disguise. I hate myself for loving you so much. I think of you every morning when I wake up and it kills me. You absolutely crushed me. You have been since we've been together. I deserve so much better. Not someone who's going to turn his back on me and not want to keep fighting for me. I kept fighting for you, but apparently I don't make the cut. Have fun never committing and always looking for the next best thing. I'll find love again, I know this much is true.

There's always tomorrow for me. <3